I have been trying to come up with my word, and that’s not an easy task. Today, riding home from our first 25k of the year, my mainbitchesforlife helped me. My word is RESILIENT! I’m resilient as hell!!!
The reason why I am is definitely because of running. I began to love running at 30. Not at a young age like many people do. In fact, I thought running was hard when I went to boot camp and had to do it. Running actually was the one thing that finally helped me conquer an eating disorder that I had struggled with for about 15 years. I was a mess in high school with it. I went to the military, partially in hopes of quitting it. In the end, I was kicked out of the Marines because of it. A couple of years later, I had my son Alex. A few months after that, I was hired as a deputy sheriff. It seemed as if things were going great, but the old eating disorder ways came back. I would fall back to it whenever life was stressful. And life is full of stress when you’re raising a little kid alone, with no family nearby, all while working crazy hours and lots of overtime! I looked like I had it together on the outside, but I was a disaster inside. I began to go to the police brotherhood boxing gym to workout, and we had to run. At first, it just sucked. Soon, I began to like the stress relief I felt. I could deal better with the stress of work, custody issues and life in general. I still remember my last binge and purge. I ran the next day and felt like shit. I told myself I’m never doing that and abusing myself that way. That was 20 years ago!
A few years into running, I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. That was a real punch to the gut because I had no idea what was going to happen to me. I had no control of it whatsoever. It really sidetracked me for about 3 years. I ended up on meds that made me so much better, and I was back to the running I loved!
From running I have made friends for life and community I never knew was possible! My main group of friends are the best! We call ourselves #mainbitchesforlife. We all love Skirt, trail and the people we meet out in our community!